I wonder often.
I wonder if all this wondering will lead me to something wonderful…
And so she fell like rain….
She swam until she could no longer and woke up in a world of wonder…
messy buns rule. thee end.
Lately I’ve been becoming more and more overwhelmed by how mundane tasks can take over ones life, mine in particular. I’ve been dwelling and watching myself grow frustrated by wasting another day studying something I know will benefit no one but myself. How is sitting through a two hour lecture on macro economics bettering the world? How is college allowing me to share Gods love? I know that growing up in America teaches us from such a young age that becoming educated, being successful, and pursuing “The American Dream” is what will bring our lives meaning, happiness, and will ultimately define who we are. But to me this so far from the truth and lately I’ve been feeling completely selfish by attending college and spending so much of my time acquiring and education. I know that in our world it is seen as such a positive thing to “educate” yourself, but what am I really learning? I feel like I’m at a crossroads and God is asking me what path I will choose? Ultimately I know the answer but my faith and heart need to converge. I need to stop questioning my God and let him really use me in this life to show his love, speak his truth, and love…really love others not for some selfish superficial reasons but simply because it is what we are called to do. I know that God has given me these questions to remind myself that I do not want my life to be a reflection of worldly things but rather, my life must reflect the light.